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Picture Yourself in a Boat, on a River
August 19, 2005 | permalink

I'm feeling a bit adrift and out of touch these days. For the first time in months I have a significant amount of free time, and an open schedule. I've gone from 80 hour weeks to what amounts to a life of leisure pretty abruptly, and I confess that it has left me reeling.

I know that in several ways my Grandmother's death has added to this feeling; it was so sudden, and of course has left me feeling sad, and a little listless. But it contributes indirectly as well- I missed the last week of the Summerscape festival, and so I didn't get to do any of the strike or any of the other end of season chores. So I don't have any real closure or transitioning from that either. I have that nagging feeling still, like there are things on my work list that still need to get done. It's the mental equivilent of that little flap of skin that you play with when you've burned the inside of your mouth really badly... annoying and distracting.

Fashion Week is rapidly approaching. I've got four shows this season and I've already started trying to iron out the schedule and book my crew. But it all feels kind of remote. I guess that when the information starts coming in a little faster it will help me to feel a little more focused.