Double Team
June 15, 2007 | permalink
Remember when I said that I hadn't been writing because I was so busy? Well, that was true to a point, but I must admit that I deceived you a little, Gentle Readers, by implying that my being busy was the only reason I hadn't been around.
You see, the whole story is that while I have been insanely busy, I have also been fairly unhappy as of late as well; so even when I had free time, I was feeling too down to do anything constructive with it. Like keep you, my wonderful and inspiring readers, abreast of the meanderings of my mind.
What, you ask, could be getting me so down?
Well, a lot of it is just me. Chronic crap floating around in my head that won't let me be. The constant struggle between wanting to connect with my friends and peers and my near inability to do so. At least lately. It's exhausting. I haven't even been able to bring myself to go out after work for a couple of beers. I feel so closed off and disconnected that I can't even imagine what I would say in the way of conversation; I cannot fathom being able to participate and interact, and sitting there watching everyone else converse just makes me feel worse. So I have been begging off.
So, that's where I am at, my friends. Sad but true. But fear not! I will persevere and overcome. Luckily that is something that was instilled in me by The Old Man even before the lesson on how people suck and you should always always always be on your guard.
*sigh*
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i daresay you'll never become an alchoholic; cause most bummed feeling people would be guzzling it down. unless you're just an at-home drinker. in which case, that's much worse.
but you're friends can get out of their shells/veneers, and care. just give em a chance, a hint. one of em will snap to.